April 5, 2010 - home for easter

kristen is home and happy. among the many drugs she has shed since friday is ativan (aka lorazepam, aka instant chemical happiness). she had been taking it to cope with anxiety attacks she experienced during the last month in the hospital. the effect of being around mae and clara is extraordinary. in her words, "i don't need it anymore. my family is my ativan."

the way we have the room situated, the sun beams at midday through the stained glass window at the head of her bed. but as often as not she is in a chair. and when she eats, she eats at the table.

for easter we had lamb, potatoes and green beans. her parents, her sister, her niece, her nephew, her daughters and i all ate a regular meal in a regular way and that made it special.

as my father told kristen yesterday on the phone, "life is full of epiphanies and resurrections." as kristen said in haiku:

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winter brought me here
all darkness and coldness
is now spring for home
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